Sparkle or Burn

I had a Vampire moment this morning. 

I actually noticed it first yesterday morning. I awake early and go for a mile long walk every morning that I do not have a 7:30 am meeting. It is dark when I leave and dark when I return. I have had the thought many times that it was a race. That I must return before sunrise. That this was my only solitude, the only moment to feel human again, on these walks. I have a fanciful imagination. Yesterday as I headed back East to my house I could see lavender in the sky and paler blues then the midnight hues I was accustomed to.

 It was even more pronounced today. The Eastern sky gaining lighter shades than yesterday and for a moment an overwhelming sense of panic…. I was not going to make it home in time. I pulled my hood tighter over my head and kept walking. But I smiled and thought maybe I would not burn up, I had not yet, maybe, I would sparkle.

When I lived on the island I would take these morning walks on the beach. They were wonderful and I miss them so much.  The scent of salt and sea oats and Sargasm weed, wet sand, vague smell of fish, the sound of the platforms way off shore, the occasional bird sounds or fish jumping.  Sometimes during hurricane season if one comes close enough to Corpus Christi and is strong enough the wind we get here has the scent of ocean. It is brilliant.

Today I am going to live fully in each moment. Not wondering when it will end or what will come next.  I do not want to miss a single moment of the joy, adventure, surprise and treasure that has been lovingly created for me. I may not like it all but I know I do not always know what is best for me. I have been allowed those things I deemed were best for me and they were NOT. However they were part of the tapestry woven for me and there was treasure within them. Join me? We all have things today we absolutely believe we have to do today, so be it. But stop and just be in the moment of them the other things will happen without us thinking on them.

Lady Tamara spent a good hour with her favorite knight

 from the North on Friday on the phone and he says nothing will come to fruition until 2017. Lady Tamara forgot to ask if she was included in the plan or will she just be a guest and pay to play like all the muggles? That was me stepping out of the moment chasing after something I want. I want to be a regular part of the venue. Live there. Play (work) there. Have a permanent place at least until I can go Pirate for the rest of my life.  To be sure, the rum will never be gone…hahahaha